I managed not to purge today and have eaten a little more.
Just sitting here right now feeling really uncomfortable.
I just felt my stomach, it is disgusting.
I want to have a shower but I can’t bare to look at my body.
Why can’t I have a normal life without gaining weight.
Why does my supposedly natural body weight have to be so high.
I found an old picture of me today and I think I look really nice.
The problem is I was restricting and purging at the time.
Fucksake.
It really has been a rollar coaster of emotions today.
