I feel really disgusting and fat. My friend just told me how I looked so much better over Christmas. This friend means a lot to me and I trust her but I don’t really know if she means this or if she is just saying it. I had begun to start losing weight then so it could have been that. I had gained weight over the past year so she could genuinely have meant that. She could have been saying it to make me feel better. I hadn’t been an extremely low weight for a long time so how could I have looked better? I don’t really understand. Intake has been low tonight but have had a few drinks, which are obviously full of calories and not helping with the feelings. Ah. Mess. I wonder if she will notice my weight loss when she next sees me. Hate me. Why?
